the inevitable comes on too slowly to bear these endless numbered hours

in two days i am returning to the east coast to see my family. in anticipation, i am not reacting well. 


all i can do to save my own life is to reduce it to the microcosm, focus on minutiae, lie on the cold hardwood and stare at the ceiling, at the inside of my eyelids. 


for those of you waiting for a response from me, for bella and andy and margaret and everyone else, i'm sorry. 


please stay tuned while anise tries very hard not to fall apart completely. 
we'll be right back after the break. 

or anyway, let's hope so.