hello again. i miss you, i miss writing, i miss staring blankly
at the screen for hours trying to find the right words for you. only having
internet on your phone makes blogging a little bit complicated.
i would like to say that's the only reason i haven't been
writing. truth is, i am keeping more closely-held secrets these days. they spin
in me like wildfire. i feel ignited, crackling in this vague june sunlight. i
am testing my own limits. i am getting downright crafty.
i just realised that i have five kinds of mustard and seven
kinds of honey. and sauerkraut and two kinds of horseradish and rice cakes and
water crackers and jello. if that isn't screaming out what's going on here,
then i don't know what would. i have a sneaking suspicion my roommate is on to
me. i am trying not to eat these things in strange combinations when she is
around, but still. the evidence speaks for itself.
in other news. i have been buoyantly frolicking around with the
dogs and running them up steep hills and not doing my laundry and not sleeping
well and getting obsessed with time. but happy, happy, happy. i think.
certainly grinning. and laughing. and racing about like when you're five and
running and laughing so hard for so long that you forget how to stop. then you
do and you forget how to breathe. but that's all over in a flash and you're
laughing again and running.
but hey, that's what june's for, getting in that last frolic
before the oppressive summer heat adds fifteen pounds to my limbs and wicks
away with my sweat the last vestiges of desire to do something, anything with
this thing that i've got that's supposed to be my life.
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