i ate and ate but now i am saying NO, ENOUGH.
i am ravenous, i feel like i could eat stars.
but i am not saying fuck it, i am saying ENOUGH. there are times i cannot say NO or should not say NO, and in those cases it's ok to say ENOUGH. i'm sitting here in the warm evening sunlight which makes my hair afire and my skin glow and i'm smoking to reset and i am saying ENOUGH. maybe i needed that food to rectify after purging. maybe i didn't. doesn't matter. all that matters is that i am saying ENOUGH. and now i have said that i can start saying NO. and i can move on to other things, books and movies that are waiting for me.
i have said ENOUGH, and now i have said NO, so now it's time to move away from the food and the ED for a tiny while and move on to other things.
i am not saying it will not come screaming back tomorrow or even tonight, but for now, ENOUGH. and move on.
and let everything be, all right? NOTHING is cumulative in my world any longer. every NO counts, every single one.
i am ravenous, i feel like i could eat stars.
but i am not saying fuck it, i am saying ENOUGH. there are times i cannot say NO or should not say NO, and in those cases it's ok to say ENOUGH. i'm sitting here in the warm evening sunlight which makes my hair afire and my skin glow and i'm smoking to reset and i am saying ENOUGH. maybe i needed that food to rectify after purging. maybe i didn't. doesn't matter. all that matters is that i am saying ENOUGH. and now i have said that i can start saying NO. and i can move on to other things, books and movies that are waiting for me.
i have said ENOUGH, and now i have said NO, so now it's time to move away from the food and the ED for a tiny while and move on to other things.
i am not saying it will not come screaming back tomorrow or even tonight, but for now, ENOUGH. and move on.
and let everything be, all right? NOTHING is cumulative in my world any longer. every NO counts, every single one.
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