backed in a corner there is nowhere to go but into your bruised and seething mind

i need to retreat but i don't know how 


because i don't believe in deleting past posts or pictures unless asked to


but my face is up there and i'm ashamed


and i feel naked and seen by everyone except the people who are supposed to see me but who don't


and i shouldn't care but it keeps on hurting


but i don't know how to make it stop, save convince myself i deserve it


i do, i do, i do, i do


don't look at me
or do, do stare into my soul and rip it apart with your eyes, it's ok, it's been happening since i got here, 


since i got here on this earth, really


i'm used to it now, i'd imagine