i am uncovering things i wish weren't there. i am stabbing ice
cream in its container and bending the spoon nearly in half. my teeth are
chattering. not from the ice cream. ice cream dripping on my legs. brown and
sticky. i am smothered in it.
one third of me has vanished. one third of me is maimed. one
third of me is real and alive and feels the sunlight on the back of that third
of my neck but it is not enough. it is not enough. i cannot be empty enough. i
can throw up this ice cream but not my inner organs. i want them all out. there
is too much inside me.
i keep forgetting to breathe. i have never been very good at
that.
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