no and no and no.

i awoke last night to the frantic yammerings of my heart and the rush of blood in my ears and a cold icy fear set in and i lay there awake in the dark, my hand pressed to my ribs, to my heart, to quell the rising panic. please do not let me die here in the dark. i know it's just anxiety making my heart pound thus but please do not let me die here in the dark. i swear, i swear, i am made of stronger stuff than this.